Going back to work was bittersweet. After 8 weeks, it was time to get back to my regular routine. Emotionally, it was hard to close this chapter of my life. I had planned to be out until February 2012, but obviously that changed and it felt like going back to work was cutting off my attachment to my pregnancy and maternity leave and everything that was all about Isla for the past almost year. It seemed like I had a better excuse to have a bad day or be sad while I was at home on a maternity leave dedicated to Isla. Now I was just heading back to the old grind and – in my mind anyway – expected to just go back to being the old Katy and get caught up in the hustle bustle of getting myself to and from work and all that. Throw the holidays in there and it is all a little overwhelming. I am hanging in there…but I feel I had to dial back some of the holiday prep this year and try and continue to be gentle with myself after all I have gone through. Don’t get me wrong, I am not cancelling Christmas, but I have definitely felt the need to simplify things this year. I have chosen to lessen the stress and focus on the joy of the season with my little girl.
Katy, I am so amazed at your strength! Emma (and Isla) are lucky to have you as a role model!! Thinking of you and wishing you peace during this holiday season! xoxo
ReplyDeleteWith each and every entry, I continue to be impressed by your strength. What you, Todd and Emma have gone through is un-imaginable,but how you all are coping with your loss together and so openly is inspiring. God bless you all this holiday season. xoxoxo
ReplyDeleteKaty -- you are such a strong, wonderful mother! Your strength continues to amaze me. I'm glad you have been able to share Isla's story. She was beautiful and perfect. We are thinking of you all and keeping you in our prayers! Love you!
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad that you are focusing on what matters most to you. I wish you and your beautiful family peace and comfort and joy in each other.
ReplyDeleteMy name is Sharon, I am a friend of Angie's. I remember going back to work after a worthless 6 weeks of maternity leave. It isn't easy but it's better to have a routine away from the house. When I got back, I didn't want anyone fussing over me, at least that's what I told my boss. It was the last three weeks of school and those were the loneliest three weeks I have ever had in my life. Find a friend you can connect with, cry with, talk with, to make your transition easier. I am so sorry your little girl is not with you. If there is anything I can do to help, please let me know. I live in Angie's neighborhood and I work in Smyrna. HUGS to you and your family. May peace be with you this holiday season.
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