Going back to work was bittersweet. After 8 weeks, it was time to get back to my regular routine. Emotionally, it was hard to close this chapter of my life. I had planned to be out until February 2012, but obviously that changed and it felt like going back to work was cutting off my attachment to my pregnancy and maternity leave and everything that was all about Isla for the past almost year. It seemed like I had a better excuse to have a bad day or be sad while I was at home on a maternity leave dedicated to Isla. Now I was just heading back to the old grind and – in my mind anyway – expected to just go back to being the old Katy and get caught up in the hustle bustle of getting myself to and from work and all that. Throw the holidays in there and it is all a little overwhelming. I am hanging in there…but I feel I had to dial back some of the holiday prep this year and try and continue to be gentle with myself after all I have gone through. Don’t get me wrong, I am not cancelling Christmas, but I have definitely felt the need to simplify things this year. I have chosen to lessen the stress and focus on the joy of the season with my little girl.