You know how a woman will get her heart broken by a guy…..and then claims that she still believes in love? That is how I feel about babies.
I was pregnant at the same time as some other friends/acquaintances/face-bookers and as I was dealing with my loss, they went on to have healthy babies. I will admit that it was/is bittersweet to see the pictures and happy announcements. But mostly, to see a new baby brought into the world is more of a “relief” to me. No woman should ever go through what I went through. Period. And to see the announcements of arrivals and pictures of happy families makes me smile…even if it is through tears reminding me of my loss. I consider Emma’s birth to be the happiest time of my life. The memories of those days are just so special to me and I was looking forward to experiencing that feeling again when Isla was born. I am hopeful I will have that chance again….but in the meantime, seeing the delight on the faces of my friend’s and their newborns makes me smile.
MUCH love to those of you experiencing a recent birth and/or addition to your family. I wish for you: quick nightime feedings, naps when they nap, good eaters and better sleepers, a heart FULL of love, great photo ops, and endless kisses on those precious cheeks. xoxo
That is sweet Katy. It is a positive outlook and I think you will get to experience that feeling again! Miss you and think of you and your family often. Love, Jess
ReplyDeleteP.s. Happy Valentine's Day to Emma..her outfit is adorable!!!!
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ReplyDeleteI wanted to send you much love and many hugs. I was expecting triplets and I had them at 23 weeks on 9/28/10 and 2 of the babies died. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful baby girl. ~ Daneen (daneen7@yahoo.com)
I am so sorry Daneen, to read about your loss.
DeleteJust clicked over from the Faaces of Loss website. Thanks for sharing your story, so sorry that Isla is not here with you.
ReplyDeleteThanks for taking the time to offer your support, Rachel.
DeleteHello, I reached your blog from your faces of loss post. I fully, 100% agree with this post. Thank God their babies are safe...it is definitely a feeling of relief when you know the baby is finally here and breathing. My name is Nicki and my daughter was born at 29 weeks and 1 day on August 13th, 2011. She passed away due to loss of blood and oxygen due to a placental abruption. This life is full of joy and sorrow. Thank you for writing and I will be praying for peace and continued strength for you and your family...
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Thank you Nicki. I am now following your blog. Much love and peace to you.
DeleteI still love babies. I love everything about them. As time moves forward I find myself less and less jealous and just glad that someone else gets to have that joy. I am glad that you still believe.
ReplyDeleteThanks Paula...I am now following you. Hugs!
DeleteBitter sweet. It's so much jealousy. I want it to. I know what I'm missing. I dis this with Kai. I wanted it with Camille and was robbed. I'm glad people's babies are Alice but it makes me wonder how any live at all. Sigh
ReplyDeleteRenel...I totally understand where you are coming from. Many hugs and much support xoxo
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