Dear God,
We are ready…whenever you are.
Thanks!
The Santello’s
So…today, we were riding home from work/school…and Todd and
I were discussing some things that have been bothering me lately. I’ve been
feeling down about some things and Todd wanted to know what’s been troubling me
and how he could help. Lately, I have been missing my family and sometimes when
summer starts I think back to how much I loved summer when I lived in Branford,
surrounded by family and friends. Also, I cannot deny that I am feeling a bit
down about the hopes and what-ifs of getting pregnant again. It’s been 9 months
since Isla died and I live in fear that I was not meant to be the mother of 2.
I was expressing this to Todd in the car and Emma piped up from the backseat
wanting to know how a baby would get in my tummy. EEK! Todd turned to me and
said “Kate…?” So…I turned and told Emma that God would send us a baby when he
thought we were ready for one. That seemed to appease her. She asked if our
baby was “inbisible” (invisible) until God sends him/her to us. I told her yes
and that we must be patient until our time comes.
That appeased her, but left me with questions. How do I
prove I am ready? Is having a baby a scientific thing…or a miracle…or
both?? I believe it is both and that
timing is everything; not only the timing of the egg meeting the sperm but the
timing in life. I am hoping that spring or summer of 2013 is perfect timing to
welcome a much wanted addition to our family. I hope God is listening closely.
We are ready to let hope into our hearts that we might be fortunate enough to
expand our love to another member of the family.
